Thursday, May 14, 2009

The hurrier I go, the behinder I get

Remember our anniversary activity?  Well, you may or may not have noticed that my inability to remain in a state of structure is causing me some angst.  As of late, it has gotten worse.  Much worse. 

We went to New York.  Came home at 11:30 p.m. and left the next morning for Utah.  We got home from Utah and started swimming lessons.  Swimming lessons consume [consume- to devour, use, burn up, incinerate, expend, destroy, burn to the ground] my whole life.  We get the big kids off to school in the morning and rush out for swimming lessons and by the time we get home it is time for lunch and naps and then after naps I barely clean up breakfast and lunch messes before someone is awake or the big kids get home and we start homework and dinner.  Top it off with trying to run every night (which I love and am finding very delightful and freeing and exhausting and hard), the father/son campout which turns into mommy{has to make her daughters feel special and indulgent and loved even more than normal}/daughter weekend, speaking in church on Mother’s Day, helping take care of Mother’s Day gifts for every woman in the ward and every other one of my daily tasks and I am left to wonder, when is a girl to blog?  Really.  When?  I know that it can be done because lots of people do it.  Like her.  Really, 5 kids, one on the way, and still blogging EVERY SINGLE DAY.  How Amy, how?!?!

I think it all goes back to my inability to remain in a state of structure.  I’m working on it. In the meantime enjoy this picture of Lennon on the way to swimming lessons.  She is wearing a beanie with her headband over the top, her swimsuit and (of course!) her snow boots.  The hand in front of her face is her newest form of being obstinate [obstinate-stubborn, determined, fixed, unmoved, persistent, tenacious, mulish, headstrong, inflexible, pigheaded, compliant (Antonym)].  Never a dull moment with that one I tell you.  

10 comments:

ABlack said...

I just found a 5k on Memorial Day that I'm going to do, wanna come? BTW it's in Utah. See you tonight, so you can smoke me, again. =)

remi said...

I must say, I get more and more disappointed in you each time I read your blog and see how un-structured you are. You should stop telling everyone your secrets. I used to respect you a lot.

I also must say that I was quite delighted that for the first time ever, I got the number of comments I deserved. And then, although my dreams were crushed, I was delighted all the more and your wittiness. thanks nat.

oh, and happy mother's day. I don't know if I told you that.

And cole and I want your kids again. soon.

remi said...

AT. AT your wittiness.

blast.

jessica said...

I feel you my friend....oh do I feel you. Thank heavens soccer is over, but instead of basking in my free Saturday I will be running my 1/2 marathon. Training for that thing has become a part time job. I can't wait to run for fun again.

My dishes are screaming at me so I really shouldn't be commenting but it's you and I love you so I have to comment!

Natalie said...

ahlena, alas i will be in the waters between catalina island and mexico on memorial day, however, i would love to run a 5 k with you. maybe we can find one here...

rem, you make me laugh. and as for the kids...take them. soon.:).

jessica, thank you! i love you too.

Tiffany said...

Oh Nat...I was so excited when I saw that blue picture of the girl typing on my blog! YEAHHHHH I'm so glad you're back! I still ask myself...how you do it and still manage to be GORGEOUS all the while increasingly WHITTY, and have the most beautiful MODEL children ever born????!!!! You are doing something right! :) Tulum...I'm so glad that you got a mormon tour guide...so interesting huh? It really brings things to life and really into prospective about the truthfulness of the gospel! WHY oh WHY are you all the way in phoenix??? One of these days I'll stop being your "blog stalker" and actually get to meet ya! :) I am a little nutso...but I am prego...so...who knows what I'm talking about....except for the above part about you...that IS true!! :) Okay, I'll stop...I can't seem to stop rambling....I'M DONE..DONE! :) Have fun on Catalina Island! You deserve it!

ali said...

I really think we missed a kindred spirit moment with Greta and Lenon. Greta wears her snowboots still too.

I was going to rebuke you for not visiting me in Utah, but then I remembered our trips to Utah when we lived in AZ and how stressful and packed they were with family and guilt etc. and I decided not to rebuke you ;) So maybe someday we'll come see you in AZ.

Miss you though.

And if it makes you feel any better, my lack of structure/organization has caused me to lose quite a few of my favorite things. As of late: my favorite hat and my address book. I'm beyond getting angry.

Christy said...

Who needs structure when you are beautiful, kind, hilarious, and have access to such great one-liners as, "I WANT A PICKLE!!"

Hang structure. I like my Natalie a little bit crazed. ;)

Kendra said...

Amen Christy!

If you wonder how people who seem to have it all together find time to blog, it's because they DON'T have it all together in the way you expect. The fact is, every mother's life is jam packed every second of her day.

Now, this part is going to sound a little shocking, but hear me out. If a mom is finding time to blog, it's because she is letting something else fall by the way side. But what I'm saying is: that is perfectly okay! So what if you put off the laundry an extra day, or the sink is full of dishes. If bloging brings you joy, or a sense of accomplishment, not to mention an incredible family record, then that is worth more than this holy grail of structure.

Don't get me wrong, I long for the very same structure you speak of. I just think, if I were more organized, I would save myslef a lot of time and stress. I'd be perfect all the time. I'd have all sorts of free time. But, now I'm learning to just have joy in the journey. Just let it go, and take baby steps. Most importantly, strive for perfection, but don't beat yourself up, and don't give up the things that enrich your life. It's like they say; Something's gotta give, and in the end, your children (and your adoring fans) will not remember how "structured" or organized you were, They will remember that you took them to swimming lessons, and helped them with their homework, and let them wear snow boots and a beany with a swimming suit.

Who needs structure when you have witt, wisdom, and a heart overflowing with love for your family and friends.

I love you Nat! Be kind to yourself because you are amazing! :)

Let me know if I can do anything for you in your persuit for less chaos. Did I ever forward the family chore lists? I'm telling you, THEY WILL CHANGE YOUR LIFE! Family responsibilities = structure, not only for you, but for them as well. How can we expect our family to meet our expectaions if our expectations are unclear. Just a thought. Let me help you. :)

amyraye said...

did you have to spotlight me on a day when i [almost] didn't even get my post up? :) thanks for the shout out.

and thanks for distracting me long enough to eat some of my breakfast.

i do love your blog.

and if you neglect enough things in your life, you too can blog daily like me [oh- and make a pact with your sister, too. that definitely helps.].